My Paint Brush!

I keep my paint brush with me Wherever I may go, In case I need to cover up So the real me doesn’t show. I’m so afraid to show you me, Afraid of what you’ll do – that You might laugh or say mean things. I’m afraid I might lose you. I’d like to remove all my paint coats To show you the real, true me, But I want you to try and understand, I need you to accept what you see. So if you’ll be patient and close your eyes, I’ll strip off all my coats real slow. Please understand how much it hurts To let the real me show. Now my coats are all stripped off. I feel naked, bare and cold, And if you still love Me with all that you see, You are my friend, pure as gold. I need to save my paint brush, though, And hold it in my hand, I want to keep it handy In case somebody doesn’t understand. So please protect me, my dear friend And thanks for loving me true, But please let me keep my paint brush with me Until I love me, too.

Dare you to dream!

This is one of my favorite poems of all time! Let nothing hold you back from exploring your wildest fantasies, wishes, and aspirations. Don't be afraid to dream big and to follow your dreams wherever they may lead you. Open your eyes to their beauty; open your mind to their magic; open your heart to their possibilities. Dare to dream. Whether they are in color  or in black and white, whether they are big or small, easily attainable or almost impossible, look to your dreams, and make them become reality. Wishes and hopes are nothing until you take the first step towards making them something! Dare to dream, Because only by dreaming, will you ever discover who you are, what you want, and what you can do. Don't be afraid to take risks, to become involved, to make commitment. Do whatever it takes to make your dreams come true. Always believe in miracles, and always believe in you! ~ Julie Anne Ford ~ 

Life as I know it :)

Wow! I have been so busy lately. I am doing my second class for the summer. I did American Government in the month of June and now I am doing Texas Government. I am really not enjoy it but it is somewhat easy, but it has a lot of writing. This will be my last class at Texas Woman's University and then I will start class on August 30 at Sam Houston State University. I will be taking 12 credit hour on Tuesday and Thursday.

I am also working at a Daycare in my Hometown and also a caregiver for a person who has a disability. I really enjoy working and helping others. It really make me happy and feel that I have a purpose in life. I think that the rest of the year is going to be crazy with living at home, going to school and having two part-time job. I can not wait to get all of my pre-recs for nursing school so that I can apply and take the next step in achieving my dream on becoming a nurse.

My headaches and migraines are back under control. My battery would not charge for a month because my charger was broke, but once I received my new charger I was back to new. I really enjoy having a battery to control my headaches. I have heard many of different stories about neruo stimulation for migraines and not all of them have a happy ending. I am so thankful that my system works and controls my pain. I am glad that my medical condition is slowly getting better. I did find out a few days ago that I have to have a Internal  Cardiac Monitor. This will stay in my body for two years and it will record my heart beat every second of everyday. The hopes for implanting this is for my doctor to see what happens with my heart in the moment when I pass out.

So life is good right now, I am busy and going to school. I have a loving family and so thankful I can spend just one more day with them.